What is a heart song?
What is it that makes our hearts sing?

I believe each of us has a life purpose, a reason or reasons for our journey here on planet Earth; a true heart song, that special passion, gift, talent, adventure, relationship or experience that will fill our hearts with joy and fulfillment, a doorway to the Divine. Many of us go our entire lifetime without finding that dream or vision, without connecting fully to the Spirit and power within ourselves.

Over the last nine years, I have been finding the most beautiful pieces of my heart song, my talent, my passion, that part of me that is a piece of the Divine, and my greatest gift is the ability to inspire you, to gently lead you to finding, embracing and walking into your heart song, that part of you that is a piece of the Divine. I have been honored and blessed with the musical and intuitive gifts that allow me to softly help you walk through your fear and into the grandest vision of who you choose to be. Together we can diminish the old tapes that tell us we’re not enough so that we can discover, embrace and walk into the greatness of who we are. Whether we are in a concert hall, a theatre, a classroom, a healing center, a holistic expo, in my personal studio or walking side by side in the British Isles, you and I together can sweetly walk, sing and dance through our fear and into our dreams.

My Story: Finding My Heart Song

Nine years ago I stepped onto the path of spiritual seeking, a path that would lead me to finding my authentic voice, my true heart song. I had been escaping, sedating and trying to fit in for most of my life. What I was attempting to do was to fill the emptiness in my heart, trying to sedate the feeling that I was unworthy, trying to fit in and get people to like and approve of me. After 26 years of this sedated, escapist lifestyle, I was in quite a pickle. I had no idea who I was or what I wanted in life, I was afraid of everything and everybody and I had absolutely no self worth, self-esteem or confidence. I still tried to maintain my false image and convince you and myself that I was FINE, inside though, I was a tangle of dark, lonely despair. FINE stands for freaked out, insecure, neurotic and emotional, my natural state even today when I forget to connect to Creator.

In November of 1999, I reached a point of such excruciating self-induced suffering I finally became willing to try something different. It seems pain is the greatest motivator for change. At that pivotal moment when I was forced to chose life over death, I asked Spirit for help, I got quiet, soft, open and willing, and for the first time in my life, I connected to that part of myself that is a piece of the Creator. I can’t say that I was miraculously cured or fixed, I just felt slightly shifted and that was all it took. I realized from this small and valuable spiritual experience, there was another way, that my reality could be changed, my perception could be altered, that by tapping into the Energy of the Universe and connecting to the Spirit within me, I could walk through my fear and into my dreams.

I continued connecting with Creator on a daily basis; I developed a daily spiritual practice of prayer and meditation; I began reading and studying many different spiritualities and philosophies; I began attending classes, retreats and workshops on spirituality, self-development, Buddhism and Celtic Shamanism with teachers such as Pema Chodron, Eckhart Tolle, Neale Donal Walsch and most life changing, Thich Nhat Hanh; I started walking a life of self -examination, meditation and prayer. I found myself so that I could find you.

Developing The Work: Finding Our Heart Song

Prior to stepping onto the Spiritual path, I was a full-time musician making my living in bars and clubs mostly. This is a fine living and I have many musician friends who choose this path. I was not fulfilled in these kinds of venues, I preferred a more Spiritual environment where I could be of service in some way, so I began to ask the Universe how I could best use my musical abilities to be of the greatest service to those around me. I didn’t send out an email to God or anything, I simply sat in meditation, went for a walk in the woods, honored the directions, sang to Spirit, or listened deeply to someone else speak their truth, and then I would be hit with inspiration. Basically how I meditate is to become aware of the Earth beneath my feet, the breath going in and out of my lungs and the songs of nature around me. When I can hear the beautiful song of a sparrow, the chesty woof of dog speak, the wind in the leaves, or the truth of a friends heart, then I know I am connected to Spirit. When I am connected, I give thanks for the moment, my life and all that is, and then I listen for inspiration. I ask how to best be of service on this good day or I ask how I can most creatively utilize my musical talents to help those around me. If I listen and listen and listen a bit more…there it is, the inspiration.

My first inspiration was to write my story, and so I did, I wrote and wrote and wrote and wrote, it is a long story. I then began to edit, and edit, and edit, and edit and I was left with much fewer words, a shorter, more succinct story. I was then inspired to write music and lyric to fill in the spaces where there could be no words. When I was finished I had a one women musical theatre production, The Hole In My Heart Is Filled With Ice Cream; it is filled with truth, laughter, sorrow, hope and possibility. My band and I perform this show at theatres, concert halls, schools, healing centers and holistic festivals, please visit our websites for schedule and ticket information.

The next inspiration was to be implemented all the way across the Atlantic in the British Isles. I was invited by Andrew Steed to co-facilitate spiritual pilgrimages in England, Scotland, Ireland and Wales. I was offered this opportunity so I could incorporate my musical storytelling, original songs, spontaneous music composition and self-discovery techniques into the Celtic Shamanism, storytelling, ancient site visitation, and faerie work that was already being offered. These Celtic Pilgrimages combine the best of everything that both Andrew and I offer all wrapped up into a profound, life changing and FUN traveling adventure. For more information about these tours, please visit my or Andrew’s websites below.

My most recent inspiration was in response to a very specific meditative inquiry to Creator. I asked very clearly how I could use my intuitive and musical abilities to help people in a more personal and intimate format. I wanted to work with individuals so I could make a direct connection face to face, soul to soul. I wanted to be able to help people on a very personal level, I wanted to create with and for each participant a healing tool specific to their individual needs. Voila! Personal Healing Mantras.

Personal Healing Mantras are an innovative and unique musical form of personal healing and transformation. Each one on one, songwriting interactive process allows you to name and claim your greatest fear, define the grandest vision of who you choose to be, and through the healing power of song and positive affirmation, you can bridge the gap between fear and vision and walk into your greatest self. You will take home with you a CD copy of your individual heart-song written specifically for you. Experience shows that if you sing your mantra everyday, if you affirm your grandest vision everyday, you WILL become the grandest version of who you choose to be.

This personal, intimate, and confidential 1-hour process allows you and me to gently uncover what you are most afraid of in your life and how these fears were installed in your thinking. Perhaps the fear of being unworthy; the fear of not being enough; the fear of being unlovable; the fear of being undeserving; the fear of abandonment and rejection; the fear of failure or success; the fear of dying. You will then discuss how this fear blocks you from success; from fulfilling relationships with family, friends and lovers; from finding and singing your heart song. Then we discuss your grandest dreams - you'll share with me and yourself how you would live your life and who you would become if there were no fears or boundaries.

I then write you a song using your words, word phrasings and intentions to link your fear and your vision through lyric, melody and rhyme. Then, we look each other directly in the eyes, we connect on a soul level and I sing to you. You may cry, laugh or just be silent, and you will be moved.
Sing your mantra every day, and especially when your specific fear surfaces!

Your mantra is a tool to literally sing through your fear and into the grandest vision of who you choose to be. It is a positive affirmation that reconditions your thought process to change how you feel about yourself, others and the world. It is a way to discover, re-member and embrace your authentic voice and to stay true to it.

Walk through your fear and into the grandest vision of who you choose to be.

You are worthy, you are beautiful and you deserve to sing your most exquisite heart-song.